You're plastic, you're fake. I think i am too
Today i feel damn whatever, maybe its like the stress of the coming week. Maybe its cos i feel i haven't studied or for that matter revise enough. Maybe i'm behind time. I need to be cheered up ):
Woke up at 9a.m, snooze10a.m snooze11.15 a.m snoozeFinally at 11.58a.m, i decided to drag my lazy fat ass out of the bed. Hahah and i realised my ordeal of being hated is over. I feel slightly more loved than i did last night (:Oh during CLE lessons this week, we were talking about death. So for about 30 mins or so, Mr Tan was talking about he dealt with the death of his loved ones. Like his dad passed on when he was 14, which i of course felt sad. Then we were supposed to write a letter because we were gonna die in a few months time, and the things you would change during this period of time. And when i was writing that letter, i realised i really wanted to change alot of things but i guess i didn't dare to, or was a little hesistant. So if i were to die, i really would go to everybody who cared for me, and tell them i love them. I ask myself, why is it i would only do that when i'm about to die?Enough of all the pondering which made me sad on thursday. Funny fact 1:I was going for my tuition on thursday, in the evening. So i took 410, then i passed RI, where Gan hopped on. So ya i sat with him, until i alighted first at my stop. Then we both said bye, and then just before the bus stopped, i said bye again. Don't ask me why. Then he like didn't hear cos he was plugging in his ipod. Then next to us was 2 RJ guys, 1 guy alighted at the same stop as me, and his friend said bye. Then i thought Gan replied, so i said bye again! Ya i realised i was damn dumb/jacked when the RJ peep stared at me. Fuck la, i never felt so stupid before. I don't think i actually get what i'm writing!Funny fact 2:Its something about my room, but i just cannot remember! CRAPThings that i want/need now:LaptopHard DiskCardigan sweater or whatever you call itThat bagI should start with my homework, namely ERP, SS, Geog,which i got extension for (: Philo, and study for maths chinese history and SS. Wah, Raffles Institution have cruel teachers ):HIATUS!
I am blind, i thought you were my good friend. And everytime i heard rumours about you, i defended you, not wanting you to get hurt. And infront of me, you wear a mask, you become all nice, which sends shivers down my spine. You become, on my side, you tell me how people are like, and scretly i disagree. Behind my back, you bitch and backstab, just so you can achieve acceptance. I don't wanna change you anymore, especially how you keep fickling with your words, and it gets to a point where its almost contradictary. You can go on telling people about me, and change and twist the cruel reality of the words when you're with me. I don't careNow that i have gotten that nonsense off my chest, it feels better. Hahah like you know, it was sticking to my chest, so now i got it off? OKAY, i feel damn lame. Blame Ugenie's photo! 15th feb, which was today, i had lunar new year dinner with the old folks as part of the interact club's plan to foster budding relationships with the elderly. Chim. Yea so I was in table 5. Got to the hall about 15 minutes late, talked to this chap, who was damn nice. Tried to take a picture without him knowing
Failed, sitting too far apart. Then there was the other guy, whom i talked to alot too. Reminds me of Grandpa, whom i was very close to last time. So just talked, random stuff. Then lohay. Then a 5-7 course dinner, which i ate very little cos i must sacrifice for the olde folke. All worth it, they were damn nice, except for one who scolded me for acting smart when i actually knew the title of the song. GRRRRR. Anyway, a picture of my table, plus cai shen ye, plus some other random peeps
14th feb, i spent valentine's day getting suaned by Yida and Jed. Bryan gave me a rose, which was nice and sweet. Hahaha, after school i went for tracknfield, realised i could fulfill my potential of throwing a javelin in RJ. I throw further than Avinash. Okay so i'm good then. Morrison has juniors that are really unenthusisatic, which sucks. We the exco have to go motivate them, just to turn up for the events that they signed up for, or to just bring the very available house shirts. SheeshhhSo pastamania after that, with Shannon, Avinash, Bryan, Marcus Lennie. Always like that, the only non-rugger. But it was nice, i ate alot and Avi would take pictures, disrupting my food intake. I know you read my blog, HAHAHAH
Tuition after that was rockers! I rock at maths now. Evidence, my latest maths TA, which FYI i always fail = 7/9I can't think of what to update anymore, cos i'm being rushed. I can't think when i'm rushed. So i shall update about B div. We won our first 2 matches, which is good. But we're not playing like that well, a few cock ups here and there. Like forwards gotta convert more, backline needs more composure, midfield should stop the dribbling. Yea, monday against Siling, hopefully we'll play better P.S This paragraph was useless ):I shall edn but before that i need to tell you something really funny which happend 23 seconds ago. I ate my coffee sweets, then i wanna throw the wraper away. The dustbin is under the table. I try to throw it in, from like 3cm away. Its like confirm go in right, then i throw damn hard, it missed by a mile, and flies to my table! Hahaha okay you gotta be here to actually see the thing to laugh until you're on the carpet.Crap i read the paragraph and its not funny ):
