Off i go to China, with my laptop. Thank God i found my laptop battery. Now this trip is starting to look slightly better
(:








I am so good, i am sooooo good, i cleared my whole damn table. Just imagine, 4 mountains of books and worksheets, some on my chair. Somemore in my cupboard, drawers. THE DUST COLLECTED WOULD MAKE FLEAS HAPPY! Hahahahha, but everything's cleared now, i put all the redundant stuff away. Like some sec 1 work (yes yes i know, damn long ago) Then got some church camp stuff, like the letters people write to you. I found my long lost sec 3 chem worksheets, no wonder i did not do well for chem. Then there were some unused files, alot and alot of notebooks. I can start a garage sale already. AND most importantly, i found my confirmation cert! HAHAHHA



Speaking of which, today was confirmation for the con 3 peeps. EH, i think white skinny jeans is damn cool. Hahah saw alot of people today, like seriously alot. The world was there? Hmmmm lemme see, congrats to Jacque, Paula, Bryan, Denise, Leonard, Micheal, Joshua, Chloe, Gabriel, this other guy from RI, shit i forgot his name, okay there are alot of people but i just can't remember now. My mind's blank when i say "who are the people who got confirmed 3 hour ago?" Its kinda late as you can see, and my brain starts to shut down. But anyway congrats to everybody! Kinda realised i am the same age and got confirmed 1 year ago. HMMMMM, weird process. But nevermind. OH AND PLEASE SEND ME THE PICTURES! I took so many, i kinda want to see them. With sexy boy Andrew, and his antics. HAHA hilarious shit. And Kristen and Alicia, okay so photos ya people! Wow confirmation is damn nice la, like not so much the mass, cos i was late anyway. Arrived during communion. Okay lost track, yea the after confirmation mass thing is damn, can't think of a word, nice? Hahha sorry, limited vocab here. Reminded me of my confirmation, quite niceeeee also. Then like everybody very happy, very crazy, like all drunk like that. Too bad i couldn't go for the party ):



Which reminds me, i'm leaving for Wuhan in 2 days. FU*%#@!!! Oh man so not looking forward to it, haven't even packed yet. Grrrrrrrrrrrr!






Forget all this sadness in this world, i feel much better now. Hahaha talking to Andrew does wonders. And so do Archie comics. Call me childish, but i simply adore reading Archie comics. HAHA!


Help me leave behind some reasons, to be missed. Leave out all the rest, cos i need someone to save me from myself


:)




She's going out to forget they were together
All that time, he was taking her for granted


Channel 5 shouldn't show titanic. Cos the whole living room was filled with tears, mostly from my mum and I

So i tried playing 18 holes today, with Melvin Sara and Prawira. The air was so hazy, that all 4 of us were coughing. Well i couldn't breathe, and my lungs were gonna explode. I felt like i was going to die, but nah i didn't want do die at old course

You know whats worse than that, its packing for Wuhan. Cos i can't find all my winter clothing, and we have no pack list. Screw it, i haven't bought everything yet.

You know whats worse than that, its clearing up my table. Its like a fucking mountain, and yes i have to clear it by tomorrow.

You know whats worse that that, its trying to sms on a Nokia N73. I think i talked about that before.

You know whats worse than that, its haveing lower back problems, and nobody believes you.

You know whats worse than that, its waking up about 10 times in the middle of the night thinking there's ants all over my bed. And when i try to flick them away, i realise it was all abad dream. 10 bad dreams

You know whats worse than that, its getting blamed for something i have no control over. Like seriously, what do you expect from me?

Whats worse, i have no idea. And looking back at my mistakes and telling myself, FUCK, screw it. I shouldn't have done that. Thats worse, thats punishment. Its like a dillusion, its like hanging on to that glimmer of hope. Don't do that, please.



Pop goes my heart! (:






The Duck & the Devil

A little boy was visiting his grandparents on their farm. He was given a slingshot to play without in the woods. He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the Target.Getting a little discouraged, he headed back home for dinner.

As he was walking back when he saw Grandma's pet duck. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it.He was shocked and grieved, in a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile, only to see his sister watching him. Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.

After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes.' But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.' Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?'So Johnny did the dishes.

Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing, and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.' Sally just smiled and said, 'Well that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help.' She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?'So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's, he finally couldn't stand it any longer. He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.

Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'

Whatever it is, you need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has seen your whole life. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven. He' s just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you. The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness, He not only forgives you, but He forgets. It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.

Something i got from someone's blog, so meaningful!







HELLO


Meet Shannon, i know him for almost 10 years now. Shannon, read this, hello best friend! Hahaha alright this was taken when we both shaved bald(well almost) somewhere earlier this year. We need more late night calls and conferences, more shopping, and more secrets! (:

Meet Avinash, my best friend too. Hahaha yea, best in my dictionary is plural. Well he's a camwhore, and somehow we click very well. Avi, you're very dao, but thats fine with me. He's nice, but he bites, and i just simple adore his lower back. Avi thinks he's hot, handsome, and everything cool. Don't stop now, cos i agree. HAHAH

Meet my Andrew, my churchie bestie. He's even more dao than Avi, but thats fine. We always have a blast together. He offers very bad advice in terms of problems that we teens might face. So much for 2 years more of experince. Read this, Andrew you're SUPER DUPER WUPER nice! Hahaha well to me and all the other con 3 girls. *clears throat*


I'm being so random today, cos it feels like the whole world's pissed with each other. We should all live in harmony, all love each other. Cos right, there's really no point in being pissed or emo, when in the end, you realise its all so not worth it. Read Avi's blog, its so emo, but then he's happy today, obviously cos he's talking to me. But yea thats beside the point

Friday we decided to go town, Clinton Micah Qayyum and I. Q was looking for ties, it sounded like thighs. So initially i was kinda confused. Before that he was making fun of my tofu thighs, no comments there. And oh yea, Clinton's well, muscular thighs. So i showed him some ties in topman and heeren. Topman is fast becoming my 2nd home. Qayyum can't make up his mind, we walk very slow, and Clinton makes me think alot. Like alot, think about everything thats so simple yet so twisted. And all the suaning, makes me think alot again too. Cos i'm not the perfect boy people make me out to be.

I bought 2 shoes today! YAYE.

I'm in serious debt, i need a job. But nobody wants to hire me cos i'll be away too often this hol. Well the NUM salesmen get 5 dollars an hour, just by standing there and looking good. Thats sounds easier than being a waiter, where its like 5.50-6.00 an hour, and you have to do shit loads of stuff. Hmmmmmmm


I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down

Lets be honest, cos i don't know you at all. You toy with others around your little pinky, tossing them away when you're done. Go have your fun, go cos in the end you'll realise i cared, but rather foolishly. Blinded, and thats just the way i'll always be.

I wanna let you walk away tonight



Well some overdue pictures, from sunday night


Seoul Garden, which i nearly died of food poisoning cos i can't cook to save my own life

Topman! (:


Well i look kinda weird, and Alimi looks, very very cool. Avi's with his usual nonsense of neither hot nor metrosexual. Go figure!


Holidays are here, well its kinda boring really. I miss going back to school, not so much the studying, but rather the company and the malay classes, the stupid times we had in 3J. Now its basically training in the morning, i'll go home and sleep like 8 hours, which is almost like a normal human being's sleeping time. This is my afternoon nap ya, who said i was normal? (:
So there goes my whole day, all gone due to fatigue.

I need shopping, it looks like the shops are having sale now! I need the psp slim. I was not gonne be tempted to buy one even with all the psps infront of me. Everybody seems to have one! But then Shi Min was like, you wanna play my burnout? I played, the OMYGOSH, the psp slim is damn light and damn, well slim! Its ultra cool, so thats 2nd on my christmas list. If you must know, the 1st is a new phone, cos my phone decided it loved me no longer, and just died in the service room.


I hope you guys want to win it as much as i do, cos seriously though words count for nothing, its quite saddening to see that not everybody is giving their best during training. Some have already given up, others just don't give a damn. I hope to end with a bang, i hope you guys will help me too



That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go





Today has been such a horrible day, i will never forget november 1. It was such a meanie

First didn't bring my phone to school. Best, people were trying to call me, and i couldn't contact anybody at all. Somehow i got more calls than usual today. Hmmmmmm

Didn't see Mr Yap today cos i didn't know i was supposed to. Apparently, they smsed me, no phone so no comments there. So didn't get my stick back today. GRRRRR

My social science GOLD trophy broke into a million pieces. I was sooooooo careful the whole day, i wrapped it with 2 layers of clothing. And at 5.49, just as i was about to go home, i dropped my bag. Dang, i have to go to Lavender street to get it fixed, i'm such a retard. A complete waste of time, someone slap me, i'll pay you.

Had to see DAS today. I might cry now, 3 hours of studying everyday during the hols. Shoot me

My phone is still spoiled. Have to keep using the replacement phone. Problem is, my contacts are in my other phone, with only a few in my SIM card. I have people smsing me, calling me, and i don't know who they are. Have to go like 'sorry, who are you?' IDIOT, and plus its so hard to sms with the N73. Keypad so small, i keep clicking send, end up having to pay for 2 smses.

I gymed today, i couldn't lift my usual weights today, it was so depressing. I'm getting weaker already, the weights almost landed on my ribcage. Enough said

I haven't said a vulgarity in this whole post. I'm such a good boy. But thats because i screamed Fuck at the traffic junction so loudly, the cars all stopped. Yea, thats how bad it was, nothing good happened to me at all. I'm gonna sit in my corner and cry la!

Eugene Thaddeus
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